yes. i jealous.. yes. i think too much.. but so what? you never really care. i'll see how long till you actually realize it.

Solo Player - Jason

LYRICS:

From the moment you walked into my life, everything felt so right
From the moment I looked into your eyes I knew I had to make you mine
Girl you had me hooked on your love, but it was all a game to you
You drove a stake right through to my heart and left me bleeding for your love

(Chorus)

I tried everything to prove I loved you
Gave my, all to, make all of your dreams come true
But I'm no longer blinded by your lies
I know your heart was never mine
Why am I the Solo Player (In this game for two)
I'm the Solo Player (no our love was never true)
Oh I'm the solo player (in this game for two)
I cant be the solo player (baby love is a game for two)

Verse 2

A simple look at your smile and it makes me feel
Everything will be alrite
It's like I'm still in love with you, or maybe I'm just a fool
Girl you had me hooked on your love but it was all a game to you
Oh you drove a stake right through to my heart but I wont bleed for you no more

Bridge:
It doesnt matter how much I loved you, or how much I care
Even if you come crawling back girl, next time, I wont be there
I'm prepared to leave it all behind, oh no you were never mine
And even though it breaks my heart, girl I gotta let you go.

#so.. you can roughly guess what i'm thinking right? it's 1.06am

when blogging mood strikes

it's been weeks since my last update. erm.. today is a quite good beginning for what's happening next, i would say =.= guess what? i revealed my own secrets in front of my college mates today.. it's quite unbelievable that i've actually told so many people about my own 'history'. okay.. it ends up better than what i thought it would be. people out there are somehow more accepting than what you think they are.. idk it was what shown just to please me or let me feel better, but i do believe they are someone who going to be with me through all the ups and downs in these 2 years of college life. AT LEAST, when nostalgic strikes.. and all memories come in.. there're someone who really (i h
ope) understands and talk about it together with me. haha. i hope. after all, i can't depend everything on my high school besties who no longer be with me every single day. nahhh even my bff who is at the same college with me will be having different sem break.. like now, when i really can't depend on her everyday.

i'm feeling much much better than when i was writing my few previous posts.. so. yea. when i am not that emotional, i blog less. it's proven now :D anyway, i'm having real good time in college though it's mid term right now.. and you know you know.. i'm having LAB REPORT DUE TOMORROW 8AM, ECON TEST 10.20AM, BIOLOGY TEST WED, SOCIO TEST THURS. awesome right..

never mind, i'd this.. haha (ignore the 'morning') of course, my coffee wasn't as nice as the one in the pic la.. haha it's just mamak coffee. i hope it keeps me awake and i'll have a satisfying study night later.. for my economic test tmr :)

''you never experience this and you won't know it''

''i'm so happy for her.. she's gone through so much before this''

why people only realize those who got it after going through a lot but not those who are still waiting and going through all these?