有时真的忍得很不好受。

sometimes i don't like posting stuff like this in blog post, cs it's only a sentence, just like a status. twitter or fb status are more appropriate. but i guess posting at here will be less noticed. yea.. not more than 5 people ever know i blog.. so.. yea. haha.. not even some of my close friends know, and the one who knew probably already thought i've abandoned it as i did abandon it for a year.. haha.

emo night,

nights.

a 4.54am post

so yea, it's 4.54AM! it was like my first time waking up at this time for no reason. i couldn't remember what time i went for bed yesterday night, probably around 10 and i already waken now. guess what actually woke me up?

i think i'd too used to sleeping on a twin sharing bed alone. coming back to a single bed in hostel after 6 weeks of hols seems so unfamiliar. I FELL DOWN FROM BED JUST NOW. yea.. i fell down, hit the table next to the bed and hurt my leg. fml. i was in a HIGH SCHOOL dreams with my high school friends surrounding me while this accident thingy happened. i was so into the dream until i din realize i'm actually sleeping in my hostel (not ipoh anymore). the reality comes in after i hurt my leg with the 'ouch' reaction. -.- yea FML right..

i post this as if it's my 1st time staying away from home and being alone outside or something like that.. but NO. i'm so used to hostel life since last march. so wth with me right. idk. i'm being very emo these days and really don't few like coming back to college life. i remember i said i never really like hols. but this hols changes everything. I DON'T WANNA COME BACK TO COLLEGE. maybe cs something bugging me right now.. that's why. i think i will back to loving schooling life again after something is solved.

cheers.

:)

out of boredom

it's 2nd day of cny.. nothing much beside meeting up with xiao wen, my close friend since std 3 :)

read aud's blog about her summary on sem 2 in fnbe, so guess what.. yeah! i wanna do a post on sem 1, fall 2011 in adp.. (it's gonna be a long and boring post ahead). it's a long sem, about 4 months. so glad it's over, but it's not a good sign cs something seemingly worse is coming..

in sem 1, i'd taken eng101 chem101 math161 acct201 and msian studies. haha.. all these subject codes somehow look like alien to people outside adp. anyway, i'd gone through all these safe and sound! lol. as a conclusion for sem 1, it wasn't that stressful like spm (seriously).. but definitely not easy esp eng101.. it's a course i never had confident on.. but i'm glad i'd completed it cs i think eng101 helps a lot. those themes for assignments like mall culture, lgbt, gender communication etc really served as eye openers to me. with one of the most awesome lecturer i've met, i think my eng has improved, at least erm.. 20% ? and undeniably, she made my probably only english course in taylor's a lil bit interesting.. without her, i guess i've hated english even more XD so.. yea. and also, not forget to mention my peers who edited my english assignments like wenjin and juan.. they really play roles in my final grade for english :) also because of eng101, i'm more closer to jin.. HAHAA. glad that i've her in adp :D

for math 161 right.. lmao. i remember the very first lesson i'd under this lecturer.. it was like a joke man! i couldn't understand a single thing he tried to deliver -.- i was so frustrated. i met real great math teachers since primary school, even till A level. but now.. HAHA. anyway, after a few lessons, i guess i started to cope a lil better esp with the quite useful textbook :) thanks God. lol.. anyway, the lecturer is friendly, dedicated and cute! but idk. his delivering skills need to be improved :X

chem 101 right!! my fav subj in the sem i guess.. firstly, i love chemistry since f4 so, it makes things easier la right.. haha. and the lecturer is like my high school phys teacher, ms wong. they are like 80% similar, they are real responsible ones. hehe.. nothing much beside my interest on chemistry increased. SIGH. i wish to majoring in chemistry... but not interested in the career. wth.

acct 201, HAHA. the lecturer's awesome laa.. hha. love everything in this course despite the heavy sem project which caused me to have a few 'sleepless' nights.

SEE, I'VE TOLD YOU IT'S A LONG POST! i really have nothing to do right now.. so let's continue.

FOR MORAL STUDIES RIGHT.. LMAO. speechless but enjoyed the community service to an orphanage.

in the coming sem, another 5 courses i'll be taking.. so.. yea! ALL THE BEST TO MYSELF AND MATES.

it's like really hard to make people accept you as who you are.. but i always believe that true friends accept your everything, they may not agree with you in many aspects but they accept that this is you. they'll be there for you throughout all the ups and downs in life. (not sure who am i referring to, just a plain thought that comes into my mind :D)

#HAPPY DRAGON YEAR 2012 world.

the pathetic moment when your heart is with someone but his/ hers is with someone else.

it's 1.26am. haha.. but no worries, aint an emo night.. but more on a night of reflections and nostalgia. while listening to some chinese songs playing in youtube, a sudden rush of emotions flooded me. without realizing, i was holding my own diary smiling.

while flipping through pages in my diary, i feel i'm growing up. time is ticking.. it's already 2012. people say lets bygones be bygones, but somehow i feel like going back to those unpleasant past events, because it was what which really made my high school life a lil bit different, and unique. i wouldn't say these memories are the real bad ones, cs i think i did enjoy myself. anyway, it's a real different story from most of my mates :)

every night at this moment, memories strike me and.. it will all end with a sweet slumber. nights world.

new year resolutions

wei xin's 2012 new year resolutions:

1. learn dancing

i really wish i can dance

2. eat less

keep my weight below 44kg (not THAT hard right)

3. spend less, save more

i'll prove to you i can do it

4. keep connected with high school friends

i love my high school friends. friends forever :))

5. learn cooking and baking

but i said i wanna eat less.. how?

6. get to know more international students :)

it's fun to know people from different backgrounds. *wink*

7. lead a HEALTHY lifestyle

healthy as in.. exercise more? (impossible) less sugary food (maybe) get enough sleep (SURE)

i'll let you know whether these resolutions make a success before 2013. :DD

it's 1.01am.. kind of emo tonight.

but like in my previousssss post, who cares right?? you are the reason but you will never know right.. i never show out tonight anyway. sometimes, i really wish showing out to you and telling you 'i'm fcking emo now (because of you)'.. but then again, you will only think the reasons are silly and you wouldn't care too, right?

2011

guess what, i was too bored and i went through all my posts throughout this few years.. i blogged too little in 2011. seriously.. i shall make a summary of the year :)

2011, a year which i have grown up a lot, a year which fulls of challenges and circumstances, a year with successful stories and failures, a year of opportunities, a year of hopes.. i guess.

i was truly blessed throughout the year, i managed to go through all the challenges with all the blessings and strengths.

so, i remember in the beginning of the year, i had my most bored 3 months after spm. i never really love holidays so, a 3 months with no schooling sucks actually. yea, it's carefree, but i really dont wanna go back to that 3 months when boredom stroke me everyday. anyway, i tried working.. not bad though. i learnt a lot through working seriously.. i heard stories from people of different backgrounds like aunties who are not educated and are salesgirls since very young age till the day of retirement, teenagers who dropped off from schools and started working after primary school etc. i felt i am so different from them, i respect them and i feel more grateful.

in march, 22nd i guess.. i entered sunway. it was one of the best memories of the year. i felt the so called college life, staying in on campus hostel was awesome.. hanging in sunway pyramid as often as possible with friends was great. i learnt a lot in A level with quite dedicated lecturers except for my __ lecturer who made me less interested in ___ HAHAH what else? YEA! memories with classmates!! i miss A1 and my friends there. i still remember my sunway id :DD i miss the place, realllllyyyyyyy. i remember the mini surprise farewell thingy for me and the last day i was in sunway uni college. AND. I LOVE MY HOSTEL THERE. (not like i dun like mine now.. but everyone will prefer that, trust me)

then i transferred to taylor's for adp. yea.. erm. basically the 1st month there was the deepest part of my life :/ lol.. you know, my 1st impression on SAT and TOEFL was so damn bad cs i screwed up in both.. now better i guess :| anyway, slowly.. i think i love adp. i never know i will like a course with 70% assignment based, but i do in the end. life in taylor's is awesome, only when i have a best and close friends here. duhhhh.. i met new friends here too. yea.. nothing really so memorable anyway.

i have really grown up in this year. i feel it -.-

by the way, friendship between me and my high school friends remains close even after we parted. :D

lesson learnt in the year: friendships need investment, stop investing when you dont feel right or happy (it's a self-defence from hurting)

*i created the history thingy back.. cs who knows, may be someone wants it lol.

从我爱上你的那一刻，我就知道你是我的一辈子。