okay, actually it is like this..

I have such a friendship problems for years, this problem exist since dont know when.. but I just realized its present recently. so, I was quite moody this few weeks.. the 1st person I told was to phuishi, I just mentioned about it and didn't say much about.. wednesday night, something strike my mind and I suddenly feel like telling it to weng wai, I sent her messages of around 15 pages long.. surprisingly, she din give any appropriate response.. : ( maybe my msg was a summary, she cant understand well or what.. may be she herself is having something else to worry..? yesterday morning, before lessons start in school, we chat for a while. she gave me some advice as she experienced such thing before.. I feel better than. BUT, after recces, something strike my mind again, and uncontrollable.. I cried. weng wai wasnt there that time, so I told everything to nee.. I talked to her, so she und more and she advised me. I really cried yesterday.. seriously that type. I think I had really pour out everything..

actually that problem is a very common one and most of the people experience it.. my friends around too.. I believe. it seems nothing to most of the people, but matters me a lot. I am a very sensitive person, I see things thoroughly, from tips till the end, every single thing that happen, every single behaviour and attitude of my friends around, I mind. but my friends around are not as sensitive as me.. or I should say, not sensitive at all..? it's just as simple as that..

now I am feeling better.. real. since I cant change the fact, why don't I change the way I think.. as nee told me. after school yesterday, I cried at home and I slept at 7.30pm! omg. it's so early.. I slept while crying.. I slept soundly and comfortably yesterday night. after about 10++ hours slept, I feel 'lighter' today.. relief and in a good mood now : )

to nee,
THX. a big thank you to you.. for being such a good listener to me. Im glad to have you as my close friend. and feel grateful too. =]

to weng wai & lei voon,
I know something had happened, but dont too worry dy. honestly, 2 of you cant make any difference lor.. I think la. especially weng wai, I am in trouble and I need you to stand beside me and guide me, support me.. you yourself must be tough.. I feel sad when I see you crying and look sad. honestly. if you feel like telling me what's happening, I am willing to lend you my ears, as what you always do to me. : )

yesterday, I was touched by michelle's present.. It is the best birthday present I'd ever received. thanks lots. I cried of too gan dong. we know each other since 11 years ago.. we've been classmates for 11 years, primary 1 till now, form 5. 11 continuos years we together in the same classroom, facing the same teachers.. about the changes on me throughout these 11 years, I guess she knows well.. may our friendship lasts forever..

we've known each other by chance,
become friends by choice,
still friends by decision,
and when we say FRIENDS FOREVER,
that is definitely a lifetime promise..

( actually this was something xin ci wrote in the letter for me on my birthday =])

you don't ignore me ler..