I shall blog about this 2 days.. many things happened on me, erm.. indescribable, complicated yet silly and something stupid. hard to tell!!! I realized I always failed to describe and express my feelings.. idk the real way to let people know how I feel.. when idk how to express my feelings, I cry.. so, in people's eyes, I cry extremely easily and crying seems part of my everyday life.. people begin to ignore me when I cry. nope, I should say 'they used to my crying dy' ~~!! I cry, not because I want my friends to pity me or what.. I just want them to notice someone around them is feeling not good, sad, disappointed etc.. but oh! my dear friends are just soo.... erhem.

yesterday, I cried. It was the 1st time I cried so 'heavily' in 2010. it was about 11 something at night, I cried until 1am. I remembered the time very well because I was holding my pon and waiting for my friends' reply.. of course, none of them replied me, it was so late that time, everyone slept.. leaving me alone crying besides my bed.. I dare not cry loudly, wailing like a baby.. I used to do that when I am alone in my house. but yesterday night, while I was crying besides the bed, my sis was on the bed.. I afraid that I may wake her up. and my reason of crying so terribly was .............................................(skip)..................................................................

then. I woke up at 5am.. ya. it's 5AM. went the store with my family for cny stuffs. lol. my mum said go earlier, less people wor. lol. of course still got people queueing all that tho it was so early, but the crowd wasn't that thick as previous years.. economic crisis? people no money? so less people arh.. tho cny is just around the corner.
saw a sales man, he asked me:

" wa! so late havent sleep ar? so good.. accompany your mummy to buy things.."
=.= " "I already woke up"

it means all the sales men havent go back home and sleep ar? kesian nya.. haha. anyway, I can understand why he thought I havent go for bed... MY EYES WERE SO SWELL THAT TIME! it was exactly like a few days din sleep.. I cried that night ma.. -.-

I saw woon hwan at store. she looked so tired.. she damn leng lui de lorh.. fair, slim, sweeeeet girl. tho idk her much, we were classmates for 2 years, glad to know her.. =]

then I went to market with my mummy.. actually I was very tired that time, but I insist to go to feeeeeel the cny atmosphere. XD market was so much crowded..

at kc leong tuition, I heard something .......................................................................................................................................................................

* that is all today.. lol. it's 10.40pm now.. cant sleep yet. tomorrow is LEI VOON'S 17 BIRTHDAY. I have to stay awake and wait till sharp 12am to wish her a happy birthday. hahah.. QB, see.. I so good to you XDD

to xxx:
i just hope some appreciation from you..