a day of frustration

okay. it's the 2nd post of the day.. a day of frustration: -

- stupid laptop wireless card not powerful enough! online that time keeps lagging. i seriously can't stand connection like this!

- weather is too hot! i can't take it. the fan in my room is in the center and my 'section' is at the side. i can't feel the fan! i.hate.warm.weather

- random thoughts are annoying. they are prohibiting me from progressing.. as in a positive way.

#$%@

conclusion: i'm not in the right mood.. because of *erhem*

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sometimes i feel i trust people very easily. i only know x for less than 3 months that time and i've told x almost my most deepest secrets. idk. i THOUGHT x will be a real best friend and i really feel telling her my problems will help. HMM.. i was kind of right at first, but definitely not now anymore. idk. silly thoughts like: 'what if one day x unfriend me and broke x's promise on keeping my secret?' 'what if x actually feel bad about what i told x but denied at first?' what if..if all these really happen, i shall slap myself and shout 'NEVER TRUST PEOPLE EASILY' at myself. i'm such a failure :/

gonna hit the sack soon. nights.

p/s i never invited people to my blog.. oh! i did. maybe just ONE of my friend.. the others who are viewing this probably get to know through others or stalking me? haha. anyway, my main point is I TREAT THIS AS MY DIARY OR SOMETHING, SO IF YOU ARE MENTIONED IN MY BLOG, DON'T GET OFFENDED. YOU CAN ALWAYS LEAVE THE PAGE AND.. IT'S MY WAY OF EXPRESSING. so.. yea :) tata.

i seriously hate people giving me the 'duh, sure not!' 'what else? of course laa..' 'told you so many times, i'm NOT' look and reaction. i don't mind these kinds of reaction if they stick with their so-fcking-sure-decision in the end. BUT THEY ARE NOT. they changed their decision in the end and said nothing about it. where's your 'duh, of course!' ?

f that b*tch